Did I just turn a corner-

How odd. How deliciously odd. Every now and again I am hit right slap dap across the head with an urge so strong it brings me to my knees. To. My. Knees. I've made it through each of them, but not without some real determination and commitment. They come out of no where, and I KNOW I'm not going to smoke, but still,stop smoking, it's not easy.But tonight I was sitting here with my husband watching TV and BAM! I got an urge. An almost overpowering urge. And instead of feeling like I was being knocked to my knees I felt like "Yep, there it is again. And I know it will pass and I won't smoke." Period. That was the end of it. Wow. It came and it went without fanfare. I commented to my husband right away "Wow. I could smoke right now." And as soon as I said it I had a calm come over me, and I knew it would pass. My whole body relaxed. And yes, I was still feeling that strong urge, but it had no power.It's hard to explain. But it felt like a real break through for me. I had an urge. I recognized it for exactly that. And i got on with my life.I'm hoping I turned a corner tonight. I'm not fooling myself. I still know I am only one puff away from 1 1/2 packs a day. But I feel like I gained an upper hand today. Like I called it's bluff. Like I said "Yea,stop smoking now, well, TOO clucking bad! Tempt me all you want. I do NOT smoke." And I really meant it. I really FELT it. I knew I would never smoke again when I snuffed out the last one - but the temptation has still been very strong. It will continue being strong. I have no doubt. But you know what? I AM STRONGER. I really am. I SO own this quit. Yes I do. Indeed I do.I CLUCKING ROCK!!!!! And I am doing it SMOKE FREE!!!!!Woo hoo! Watch my little chick go!!!!!!