I need to talk to someone, help

OMG - I can't believe the way I'm feeling. We had friends over who smoke,stop smoking, I thought I was okay with that. But they left and now I found a pack they left behind. I'm all alone, and my hands are shaking, my mouth is watering..NO NO NO why now???? I have a year under my belt!! I need to talk to someone... I didn't smoke any, I had to put them in the trash can. But why now??? Does that mean I can't party anymore with people who smoke. I have before, I don't understand this. Actually I feel better typing this out. Never let your guard down!!! The monster,quit smoking, it can be surprising when he comes out and hits you over your head!!!