I Can't Lose This Feeling...

I Can’t Lose This Feeling…Back when I was a smoker, there was nothing better than a cigarette after a meal, to have that wonderful full feeling of satiety and reach for a smoke. But then I realized in the month or two prior to my quit what was happening. I would have this wonderful feeling, have a smoke and then the feeling would dissipate to be replaced with a feeling of emptiness. An emptiness that could only be filled with another smoke.This concept came in handy during the first week of my quit. There I was,quit smoking now, feeling satiated after a meal and I just sat there. My mind craved a smoke. I turned to my gut and asked “Do you want a smoke?” My gut answered “No way. I feel so good. I do not want to lose this feeling.”Thus the beginning of my quit was this constant dialogue between the head and the gut. Every time I craved a smoke, I would just do a gut check. I asked the gut,stop smoking now, “Do you want a smoke?” And the gut would answer, emphatically “No! And don’t you be stuffin’ your face either! We ain’t hungry! And if you try to stuff your face, we’ll just send it right back up!”This was basically what was swirling around in my head during the first month. I still do a gut check every now and then to keep my guard up. As every day passes and the journey keeps on getting longer and longer, the quit becomes more precious. I do not know what the future holds but what I do know is that I can’t lose this feeling…7.10.09 marks five months