My story (2)

I am 26 male from VA, been smoking since I was 8 with a 4year break in between, now smoke about 2-10 cigs a day depending on how long my day is I just cant seem to kick this addictionseems extremely hard for me, I either work alot and stressout so i reach for a cig or im bored and i reach for a cigMy last good attempt of quitting was about a year ago where i quit for a few months,stop smoking now, but it ended because of a nervous breakdown I had after being up for 2 days working on midterms having a fight with gf and eventually getting pulled over and getting a ticket that night, I just went to 7-11 bought a pack, lit that cig and completley lost itI did read Allen Carr's book but my attempt of quitting after it only lasted for a day, tried to quit numerous times as well and I agree that it is fear, I keep thinking: what happens when I quit? will I go crazy without cigs? will I have withdrawal pans and snap at people? will I just go even more depressed?I seem to get the mental aspect of it fairly well, I can probably list 100 good reasons to quit and 0 opposite reasons, my problem is the actual act and commitment to not smoke anymore...In essence not being able to quit makes me feel weak and helpless, like an old person and really kills my self-esteemI have full confidence that If i can overcome this addictive weakness of mine I can become more confident,quit smoking, sucessful and happier...yet what is stopping me? fear? why cant I just act and commit? Im tired of being weakpondering things drives me nuts, i've been at war with my self constantly thinking how I can overcome this with my philosophical and logical mind and its driving me nuts I just want this war to end already because Im tired of wasting so much effort time and health on this